when i was growing up, i had a few good friends: Eric, Josh, Nick, Ben, Dan, Brad, Joe, Denise, Justin, Earl, Troy, Robin, and my future fiance christine (i hope!). All my life ive been wanting to get out and do something great. I wanted to try and break out of the same ol thing that my family has been doing for generations. I graduated in 1999 from Horace Mann High School in North Fond du lac, wi. My parents couldnt graduate, because of personal problems in life. I was the 1st to go to college, but failed miserably... Moved in with Ben in 2005 into are 1st apartment, that life died that same year because i lost my job at a styrophoam company, kicking both me and ben out. Ben moved on to janesville to live with his lady friend he met online (and yes there still together to this very day). I ended up moving in with his friend DAN. stayed there 1 1/2 years, i got to know him very well...i felt forced since i didnt want to move back home. After that i moved in with my sister and her 2 friends lisa and christine. Lisa eventually moved out 3 months later, april a few months after that because of college (again during the summer then left when school started after that yadda yadda). I finally got a Job at a quaint grocery/department snow (known famously), ive been working there 6 month next month. This summer i plan on going to a psychiatrist to figure out whats going on in my brain, because i had thoughts of suicide since i was 18, one break down a few years ago (told mom i was depressed). The reason for the depression was the following died almost every 1-2 years following: Grandma Della (1998-Heart Attack), Uncle Wayne (2001-Diabetes) Uncle Howie (2003-Diabetes), Uncle Jim and Aunt Darlene (The week of 9/11 of suicide at there home in fond du lac) My friend Earl (leukemia 2001) My Friend Justin (Suicide, Gunshot to the chest-2000) I have to get help, because there are times where i still dont feel i want to live, when i KNOW i have to.... i know i have love for everyone i know and dont want to hurt them by doing anything stupid. After ive done all that i may take up my 1st dream that I NEVER told anyone about, because they were to busy talking about there problems in life. I wanted to do Video Game Design long before dan ever brought up the idea. i also want to move to a warmer climate, wisconsins cold weather HAS GOT TO GO!